Entries for October, 2004
October 1, 2004as the story unfolds Posted at 07:21 AM haaaaaaay... sobrang boring talaga dito sa bahay... kahit madami akong ginagawa, iba parin yung umaalis ka... 6:00am - nagising ako, nagbukas agad PC, tas nagragna kasama ang mga kaibigan ko dun. 8:00am - kumain 8:30am - dahil sa sobrang boring dito sa bahay, lininis ko na kwarto ko... grabe, yung mga basura ko sa drawer ko. nandun pa yung mga basura ko nung first year high school ako. haha. oo tapos nag floor wax, nagpalit ng bedsheets tas pag baba ko pati mga hugasan sa lababo binanatan ko na. 10:30am - naligo na ako tapos naglaro ulit, tas nanood smallville. 12:00pm - natulog ako 2:57pm - nag PPC nanaman ako dinadownload yung patch. mamaya manonood ako nang MULAWIN (wahaha sarap kasi pagtawanan ung animations nila... tapos taragis na yan, may lumilipad na kalabaw... tas nood ng dalawang episodes ng smallville tas basa ng PDL tapos tulog ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- come and go now as you please Your actions write the melodies To the songs that we sing And you just sing And I finally found that life goes on without you And my world still turns when you're not around Is this the way you want it? Is this the way it has to be? Sitting here beside you But my heart's lost in New Orleans Dreams come clever Hearts now severed Difference of forever And I am lost there Come and go now as you please Your actions write the melodies To the songs that we sing And you just sing along out loud naive orleans/ anberlin |

October 1, 2004
wuiwuiwuiwui... Posted at 11:20 PM two days na lang pasukan na... taena... sayang, hehe kung kelan ako nasasanay na walang pasok eh... ayun. wahehe... pero ok lang yan, mejo excited na den ako. chaka ung smallville season three, tatapusin ko na ngaun... apat na cd na lang... ocgecge... tapos ung sa PDL nga pala... next time na lang... hehe. |

October 2, 2004
wuiwuiwuiwui talaga! Posted at 11:33 AM wahahah at last 'champion' na ko sa ragna... hehe.. kaso ang hirap nung mga moves niya... pero astig... basta! yeah! |

October 2, 2004
time for another useless post! Posted at 10:20 PM its sunday, you know, cold mornings and stuff.. later i will go to church (seriously) and i will watch the final episode of seasons of love (coz i have this little crush on shaina) and i will also watch survivor which i failed to watch last week because of the season finale of the amazing race i will also read two chapters on the PDL because quote, unquote forgot to read it yesterday... and a good news, my friend, the chickboy has a new gossip to share... i will have some answers of why is he so happy... oh well, gotta go now, i will play auroro with my usual play buddies.. astig ung final attack nung champion, mahahati ung sahig...wala lang. ------------------------------------------------------------ ows talaga?, malinis ka ba? grindept |

October 3, 2004

October 3, 2004

October 3, 2004
at last the day hath cometh Posted at 09:46 PM wohoo! rejoice! hallelujah! at last its pasukan na... wuiwui! i dont think i will last a few days more on this tormented household! papasok ako maaga kasi paparevise ko sched ko kasi nga di ba nahypnotize ako... oh well, geh gotta go... ligo pa ko eh! |

October 4, 2004
changed Posted at 09:14 AM oi... sa sobrang kagustuhan ko na makasabay sa graduation... eh pnapalitan ko na pati specialization ko... ala lang... taragis kasi eh, naubusan na ko ng cache, tarantado ung ale napaka sungit... sha na nga sumira nung schedule ko sha pa may ganang magalit... oh well... ayun. geh geh.... lalaro pa ko! |

October 4, 2004
yet another emo attack Posted at 09:22 AM Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find da person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfih concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but with the man whom loves you more. The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow but never too far to feel the love deep within your being. To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you alow that person to find hos own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just settig the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from bitterness, hatred and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare away your strenght and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you but rahter let you grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may have found peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today. There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful so we just find oursleves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just friendship. We start our desperate to attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts our still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don't have to forget the person you love. What you need is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be bitter off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today it means that someone better is coming tomorrow: if you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry, if you have to, but make sure that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you and when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime. ------------------------------------------ amen to that |

October 5, 2004

October 5, 2004
oh yeah? Posted at 10:37 PM thesis na!! grabe na to... muster all the ewan you havebbye |

October 6, 2004

October 7, 2004

October 7, 2004
what will come will come and we'll have to face it when it does Posted at 12:33 PM well, yan ung number one na philosophy ko sa buhay. jan ko binabase lahat ng ginagawa ko. cge lapit lang... sasaluhin ko lahat. ganun ako eh... kinakaya lahat... un ako eh. un ang nature ko eh... fighter bata pa lang ako sabi na sakin un... eh ngaun, nararamdaman ko na ung pressure... and i like it when there's pressure... kakayanin namin yan, diba serious mode na ko? cge, come and get me! --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- put some emo lines here |

October 8, 2004
nightingale Posted at 11:05 PM And I will flail under these lights that seep down from the bitter sky tonight and I will kick and beat my wrists together and feel an ocean breathing waves, feel them licking at my face. Ceilings don't exist and there are no floors beneath me. If I were king of this night, would you become my queen? And I hope, your majesty that you like your position. I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom. Just kiss me before I go. I'll have to walk a thousand miles just to find the ground deserving of your feet. You could throw me down and walk on me and I'd just look on through my love and through the haze. And I hope, your majesty that you like your position. I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom. Just kiss me before I go. The nightingales are singing now. They're calling out our marriage to our subjects on their knees. Their jewelery is thrown into the air. They sigh at their release as their shackles hit the ground. The trumpets call out now. We're home at last. And I hope, your majesty that you like your position. I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom. Just kiss me before I go. purpose driven life tralala |

October 10, 2004
miss ko naaa... Posted at 02:27 AM meron akong namimiss... T_T -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- put emo lines here |

October 10, 2004
looking back on today Posted at 08:08 AM 30th of April, seems like yesterday. We bought a house above the ocean where our kids could laugh and play. I called you from Paris to tell you that I wrote our names on the observation deck of the Eiffel Tower. Remember those nights, playing "Summer wind" on the juke box of the bar we used to go. We made out in the bathroom and you walked me to my house, I tried to convince you not to go home. If only i had more time, I'd take you where you wanted to go. Italy isn't the same without you here. If only I had one wish, I'd want a million tillion lifetimes that I could spend with you... Fall in love with you again and again. 1st of November, 1998. I was thinking of what to say when I could call. Denice come over to my house, cuz you're the one for me. We'll drink cheap wine and watch more shooting stars. Remember our first apartment? Our couch was never big enough for two. Still, we'd fall asleep in eachother's arms and wake up on the floor. Now looking back it was made for me and you. If only I had more time, I'd take you where you wanted to go. Japan is really nice this time of year. If only I had one wish, I'd want a million trillion lifetimes that I could spend with you... Fall in love with you again and again. purpose driven life the happy song |

October 10, 2004
the hero dies in this one Posted at 12:01 PM as i leave here today apartment 108 ill always keep you in my heart anderson is cold tonight the leaves are scattered on the ground i miss the seasons and the comfort of your smile sometimes this all feels like a dream im waiting for someone just to wake me up from this life as i look out at these fairgrounds i remember how our families split apart i dont think i ever told you but i know you always did your best and the hard times they only made us stronger as i sit here all alone i wonder how im supposed to carry on when youre gone. ill never be the same without you. i love you more than you will ever know. so maybe now you finally know sometimes were helpless and alone but you cant let it keep you weighted down you must go on. do you ever feel like crying do you ever feel like giving up? i raise my hands up towards the sky and say this prayer for you tonight because nothing is impossible. as i sit here all alone i wonder how im supposed to carry on when youre gone. ill never be the same without you. i loved you more than you will ever know. so maybe now you finally know sometimes were helpless and alone but you cant let it keep you weighted down you must go on. the hardest part isnt finding what we need to be its being content with who you are. stay who you are. you must go on. stay who you are. |

October 10, 2004
summer wind was always our song Posted at 09:54 PM These break-up songs make sense again And i really wish they didn't. Sinatra's singing summer wind And i'm thinking of the night we met. Just one last time Can i hear you say? "You're my little boy I never want you to go away" Where are you? Please believe in me. I'm not hanging up the phone 'til i hear you say, "I love you. I need you near." Just give me one last chance And i'll never let you down again. Oh and what i wouldn't give Just to kiss your lips again To hold your hand next to my heart And wake up with you in our apartment. Just one last time Can i call you my sweetheart? My best friend Why do all good things come to an end. |

October 11, 2004

October 12, 2004
thesis... Posted at 06:02 AM hirap pero kaya yan... ------------------------------------------------------------------------- the strong shall liveand the weak shall perish |

October 13, 2004
theory of operating system lab Posted at 09:30 AM hay... as expected, si mam guererro ay ganun pa den 2lad ng dati! amp yan... wla kwenta! pano kaya ko gagawin tong mga to eh wala nga akong alam sa VB... at ung aking (extraordinary) skills sa C++ eh na deteriorate na... huhu... ayus lang... inspired naman eh. |

October 14, 2004
real love will never become hate Posted at 10:52 PM Four People You Will Meet In Life Life is the process of finding love. Every person will need to find four people in his/her life. First person is yourself. Second person is the one you love most. Third person is the one who loves you most. Lastly, the one you spend the rest of your life with. In life, firstly you will meet with the one you love most, and learn how love feels; Because you know how love feels, you can find the person who loves you most. When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most. Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with. Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person. The one you love most, doesn't love you; The one who loves you most is never the one you love most; And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who loves you most. He/She is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time. Which person are you in other people's life? No person will purposely have a change of heart. At the point in time when he/she loves you, he/she really loves you; But when he/she doesn't love you anymore, he/she really doesn't love you anymore; When he/she loves you, he/she can pretend that he/she doesn't. Same goes, when he/she loves you no more, there's no way he/she can pretend he/she loves you. When a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you, you must ask yourself if you still love him/her. If you also don't love him/her anymore, don't ever let him/her leave just to save your pride. If you still love him/her, you should wish him/her happiness and hope that he/she will be with the one he/she loves most, not stop him/her from it. If you stop him/her from finding true happiness with the one he/she loves, it shows you already don't love him/her, And if you don't love him/her, what rights do you have to blame him/her for a change of heart? Love is not possessive. If you like the moon, you can just take it down and put it in your basin. But the moonlight still shines upon you. In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing that person. Let him/her become a permanent memory in your life. If you really love the person, you must love him/her for what he/she is; Love him/her for his/her good points and the bad, You can wish for him/her to become like what you like him/her to be just because you love him/her. If he/she can change to become what you like him/her to be, you don't love him/her anymore. When you really love a person, you cannot find reason why you love him/her, You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this person be with you. Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria. In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end. Being away from each other is a type of test. If the relationship isn't strong, then you can only admit defeat. Real love will never become hate. When two people are in love, they love to ask each other to swear and to make promises. Why do they ask each other to swear and promise? Because they don't trust each other, they don't trust their lover. These swears and promises are useless; Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love for you will never change! We all know that the sky will never fall, the ocean will never dry. Even if it does happen, are we still alive by then? Be careful when making promises, don't make promises that you cannot keep. Swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen, so no harm just saying it casually. Remember, swearing by things that can never happen are the most touching! In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but what you do is another; The one saying doesn't be --------------------------------------------------- amen to that (like i care) |

October 16, 2004
nabuburn ng naruto! Posted at 12:30 PM kung gusto nio ng naruto 1-104 + ung movie bili na kau sakin |

October 17, 2004
just found out something... Posted at 06:28 AM hehe. wala lang, just another sudden burst of new found faith. kasi kahapon... the waiting is finally over (i think) and (i think) it is all up to me... but i have made a promise... let me survive today and i will approach you in the near future... my, no, our happiness can wait. i have waited for so long, just a little more wouldn't hurt... it is for you. it is for us. they say love can wait, amen to that. well, she knows naman eh. and i know na ren... --------------------------------------- finally, i think it will be 'they live happilly ever after' |

October 19, 2004
whatsoever Posted at 02:54 PM super duper mind straining naruto marathon... 10 cds 30 episodes over 15 hours non stop... and i am not God 24 cds to go. |

October 20, 2004
boo Posted at 10:50 AM tragis thedos nanaman... makatunaw kokoteng machine problem (as if naman na ako gumawa nung program) apir. |

October 21, 2004

October 21, 2004

October 22, 2004
happy! Posted at 12:13 PM ala lang.. hehe reunion sa bagong private server na auro... nakita ko ulit sina leslie (aka lessyr, little madeline) at si jack(aka ryonosuke, moo) astig! tapos si jonaz andun na den... c cza na lang kulang astig! wait for screens! |

October 24, 2004
simba Posted at 02:17 PM layo ng dinayo ko para mag simba amp... pero ok lang. as long na kasama ko siya, everythings ok. what crap... oh well gotta go! |

October 24, 2004

October 25, 2004

October 25, 2004
praning nanaman Posted at 02:04 AM napaparaning nanaman ako... tsk. kung ano ano na lang iniisip ko... haaaaaay... ah ewan... balik ganito nanaman ako... T_T |

October 25, 2004
so little time so much to do... Posted at 01:55 PM grabe tambak na ang gawain ala pa hell week... inaasahan ako kaya di ko dapat ibetray ang kanilang trust... kaya namin yan. |

October 25, 2004
ill catch you Posted at 03:07 PM can you sleep as the sound hits your ears? one at a time an unspoken balance here unabridged for so many years that I should stare at receivers to receive her isn't fair don't worry I'll catch you don't worry I'll catch you don't ever worry your arms in mine any time wouldn't trade anything you're still my everything to my suprise before my eyes you arrive don't worry I'll catch you don't worry I'll catch you don't ever worry still breaking old habits, habits you pulled the wool over me and I can see everything everything remembering Jinx removing don't worry I'll catch you don't wory I'll catch you don't ever worry no need for reminding you're still all that matters to me... |

October 28, 2004
kulit ampz... Posted at 12:29 AM hay. talagang jinojoke time ako nung frend ko ah... hehe ang kulit. prang game show ang offer... let me think about it... hmmmm.... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Your eyes tell the stories of a day you wish you could Recall the moments that once have Retrack the footsteps that brought us to this favor I wouldn't ask this of you |

October 28, 2004
this photograph is proof Posted at 12:34 AM (I Know You Know) Well, i'll wait till you listen I wont say a word To follow your instincts Just never worked for me Your silent but strong, (yeah, I'm playing that card) And your noticing nothing again Now I'm lying on the table With everything you said Keeping mind the way that it felt When the most I could do was to just blame myself (Yeah, I'm playing that card) When the most I could do was to just blame myself And I know you know, everything I know you didnt mean it I know you didnt mean it I know you know, everything (drop everything) I know you didn't mean it (start it all over) I know you didn't mean it (remember more then youd like to forget) So, we're talking forever And you almost feel better But, betters no excuse for tonight You see, it's never been enough Just to leave all you gave up But, its never good enough to feel right Now I'm lying on the table With everything you said It will all catch up eventually Well, it caught up and honestly The weight of my decisions Were impossible to hold Today we'll never know Today we'll never know Well I, know you know, everything I know you didnt mean it I know you didnt mean it I know you know, everything (drop everything) I know you didn't mean it (start it all over) I know you didn't meant it (remember more then youd like to forget) Drop everything, start it all over remember more then youd like to forget [x2] Would you like to forget Would you like to forget Drop everything, start it all over Well, drop everything start it all over (would you like to forget) Drop everything start it all over Start it all... Well I, know you know, everything I know you didnt mean it I know you didnt mean it I know you know, everything (drop everything) I know you didnt mean it (start it all over) I know you didnt meant it (remember more then youd like to forget) I know you know I know you know...you know, you know, you know... |

October 28, 2004

October 29, 2004
if tomorrow comes too late... Posted at 01:50 AM weeeeeeeee... bukas makikita ko na ulit ang mga frends kow... hehe.. tagal na namin di nagkikita kita eh... yeah! shempre kuwentuhan at tawanan to the max nanaman... pero mamaya, pnta ako sa mini fair ng saintandrews... 2 years ko na ata di nakikita un... T_T miss cabrera asan ka naaaaa? handa na kong pakasalan ka! ------------------------------------------------------------ kua kua miss ko na kau nila kua Hitsu hehe |

October 29, 2004
Im alive what i can say? Posted at 01:59 AM Got out of bed today I’m alive, what can I say? I’m really happy to be Somewhere with someone who makes me happy. I took the bus downtown. All day long I walked around I looked at all the sights And thought about how lucky I am now. I was sick of feeling down. So I gave it all away. 2000 miles from all I know And so much better off today. I’m still waiting for the world. To come crashing down again. And I’m still waiting for someone To call me up and tell me your dead. Sometimes I wonder what was Going through your head I don’t know but I won’t go there again. You make me smile so wide When I look into your eyes. When your not around You know your somewhere stuck inside my mind. So here I am today I was lost for 20 years I found clarity The day I took a chance And moved away. |

October 29, 2004
when crocodiles attack Posted at 02:28 PM whoa! di kami nag away ni mj ngaun! astig! its a first! tapos nakakuwa kami ng docu adviser na may quote unquote alam... pnapapunta nga kami agad sa lasalle eh... ayun. tas ala kami systad... balak ko pmunta sa beloved saint andrew's eh sumablay nag pahintay si mj... eh... shempre pag tumanggi ako mag aalburuto nanaman un... ayun, tas ala pala sha pasok... ampz nga eh nakita niya ung gip ko sa kanya... T_T pero mali sha di sha crocodile... haha ano ba maganda pangalan sa crocodile na isang salita mo lang eh me-naiisip na kabastusan na karugtong... dapat mary ang simula... ayun pagtapos ng brainstorming nakalikha kami ng isang pangalan para sa isang manyakis na crocodile... (peace tayo mj!) mary-lee alam ko wala kaung idea sa mga pnagsasasabi ko ------------------------------------ like saturday night i'll be gone before you knew that i was there |

October 29, 2004
several ways to die trying Posted at 10:47 PM Several Ways To Die Trying Pacific Sun, you should have warned us, it gets so cold here. And the night can freeze, before you set it on fire. And our flares go unnoticed. Dimminished, faded just as soon as they are fired. We are, we are, intrigued. We are, we are, invisible. Oh, how we've shouted, how we've screamed, take notice, take interest, take me with you. But all our fears fall on deaf ears. Tonight, they're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light. And blinding our hearts with their shining lies, while closing our caskets cold and tight. But I'm dying to live. Pacific sun, you should have warned us, these heights are dizzying, and the climb can kill you long before the fall. And our trails go unmarked and unmapped and covered just as soon as they are crossed. We are, we are, intriguing. We are, we are, desirable. Oh how we've shouted, how we've screamed, take notice, take interest, take me with you. But all our fears fall on deaf ears. Tonight, they're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light. And blinding our hearts with their shining lies, while closing our caskets cold and tight. But I'm dying to live. |

October 30, 2004
my way of thanking a special friend Posted at 09:33 AM sabi ni mj yun daw ung pnaka special na gift na narecieve nya... ayun, ala lang natuwa lang ako... oi pers time ko ginawa ang ganun... wala lang... alala ko tuloy nung kino-conceptualize ko ung gift na un... tapos ung nakaisip ako ng idea, grabe di ako makatulog sa sobrang excited... sa sobrang excited ko di ko na naituloy ung gift ng ilang linggo... aun... pero nakakahiya pnakita niya sa ate nya amp... di na talaga ako magpapakita sa kanya... speaking of special friends, mineet nga pala namin sina cza at leslie at jack... ayun, tagal na naming di nagkakakita kita... grabe... tumaba si faye at si cza eh lalong tumangkad... (hehe) wala lang tapos ang mga super revelations nila, grabe nakakatakot... hehe... wala lang, honored lang ako kasi sa lahat ng pde nila pagsabihan ako pa diba? ayun... geh geh... happy holloween to all |

October 31, 2004
amp nanaman Posted at 09:13 AM seryoso ata ung isang frend ko ah... kachat ko kasi kanina... she seems serious, kala ko kasi jinojoke time nya ako tulad nung dati... eh la naman ako masabi sa kanya... at nangongonsensya pa... at any rate, happy birthday nga pala kay mj 'crocodile' guarin and happy holloween sa inyo! |

October 31, 2004
hi carl! Posted at 09:23 AM hi carl! wala lang... hehe. alas tres na, eh di ako makatulog. hehe ganito ako pag di maka2log eh, nagsusulat ng kung ano sa mga frends... hehe.. musta na? kaw ah minsan ka na lang magkwento ah. busy ba mshado sa skul? kaw puro ka na lang skul di ka na nagbago... wala lang... miss ko na kayo eh. baka tanong mo kung cnong kayo? shempre kaung mga frends ko... baka sabihin mo miss na kita ah. magfeeling ka lang jan! cge na nga aminin ko na! hehe.. wala lang... miss ko na ung dati no! ung kakulitan mo. hehe. di ka na nagbago ah! puro ka kulit. which is good... pero wala lang... hmp. ikaw! tsk tsk... minsan mo na lang ako itxt... kung di pa kita ittxt, at papasahan... kapal ng mukha mo! de joke lang... cguro wala ka lang tlagang load... hmp dati naman nagloload ka ah! bat ngaun hindi na... tampo na ko nian... :( ayun... di na rin ako mshado nakakapag YM, u know... school and stuff... alala ko dati puro YM tau buong hapon eh... tas sa sobrang YM natin tinanggal nung kuya mo ung modem.. hehe... oi ung modem nga pala di ko na babawiin ah. diba dati sinosoli mo? wala un, di ko rin naman magamit... remembrance ko na lang sau diba? wala lang miss ko na ung dati! paramdam ka naman ok!? matutulog na nga ako... bbye! mwah! zzzzzzzz... |


