Congratulations
Posted at 05:55 AM

My cousin passed this licensure thing that needs to be taken to be a doctor. Now, the vela side has two doctors.

Funny, when i was younger, when older people asks me "o, ano gusto mo paglaki?", i always say that i want to be a doctor when i grow up. Ironically, from the day i was born until about 8, i was so sickly. In fact, a clinic on our village was renovated several times because of me. I grew up hating doctors. My mom says that always cry when i saw one.

My interest of becoming a doctor faded, when i learned to hate - banana ketchup. Yes, folks, that red substance that's a usual audience in breakfasts. I just don't like the smell of it. It makes me puke. So, in my mind, ketchup is associated with blood - so now, i don't like to be a doctor anymore.

Now, i want to be a - politician. Yes, the hero instinct in me wants to get rid of all of the evil picture that is always conceived when someone thinks about our system.

Today, crocodile cops has price lists of 'lagay' that you will give to them whenever they (purposely) catch you doing (small) illegal traffic stuff. I want to end that.

Now, after i ended Filipinos poverty and make us a first world country, i want to start war with neighboring countries and make me the king of asia. And then, i will start war with the westerns and kidnap the world's greates mind and make a super particle cannon in my name and threat all countries that oppose me. Then, i will fund NASA's research on Extra-Terrestial life. Of course, i will find an alien country. (fact: pag natuklasan tau ng aliens, ang tawag din nila satin ay alien)I will correspond with them, learn their language, be the minister of earth in the Galaxy Council and now that i have the Super Megaton Allan-Particle Cannon on my disposal, i will threaten the aliens and rule the galaxy!

But to become a politician, first, i have to become an artista. Because how can i become a politician if i can't sing and dance? It's like joining a soccer team without a pair of legs. I will join stastruck, win it of course, then be in a love team with my girl co-winner, star on a movie, have multitudes of fans... Yes, then when i am old enough to run as a politician, i will run. Knowing Filipinos well, for i have lived with them all my life, they will vote for an artista...

But before all that, i must finish my PLDT project. bwahaha...


Soon... very soon...

ewan ko ba.
Posted at 10:30 PM

ayun, di ko na ppntahan ung sa netpros... sayang din un, instant trabaho na... kahit di ko alam ung benefits, at least, my trabaho na. sabi nung ibang kaklase ko, kunin ko na kasi mahirap daw talaga trabaho ngaun... eh ako, last choice ko na kasi ung line of work na un. pero ok lang, at least kumikita na. pero ayun nga, di ko alam... gs2 ko kasi ung may training sa field na di ko mashado alam... dun kasi alam ko na ung work, at mukhang walang career formation... ewan ko lang, geh madami pa naman jan..

oo nga pala. 6:00am na, bunganga nanaman ng magaling kong nanay ang naririning ko... well, what's new?

The day so far...
Posted at 06:22 AM

Firday, Last work day for the week.. Well, i can say that time flies by when you are having fun... This week, went like a snap. Got some stupid shits from she-who-must-not-be-named, but its all good...

It is safe to say that i am on the right track, i've got the proper bearings, the well oiled machinery. But its dangerous to assume that everything is all right. I must take caution...

So, why i am friggin' badtrip today?

Here's the morning scenario:

I woke up around 5:30 am. Of course, i did not immediately get up from bed for i am still enjoying my cozy, flu inducing bed. I'm still contemplating if i am going to go to Netpros. They are bugging me lately but i don't think they'll paying this genius enough if i work there.

I sighed, half-wanting to get back to sleep, to hug my dirty pillows (our maid makes it a point to clean it religiously) and return to la-la land... But my conscience said that i must get up. Get up and smell the coffee... So, i got up, picked up my towel, and ventured down to the kitchen of eternal grossness and breakfast.

I placed food on my plate. Fix myself a milo up, and went to watch the morning news. As usual, crimes here, rape there, and extra reports about artistas i don't care about. I sighed to myself... "Well what's new?" After eating, i dumped the crap of the lababo... Then, like thunder, my mom grumbled and grumbled her endless rants again pissing me off in the process though i have heard her on this mode for a million times. I went to the CR, took a bath. Put the faucet on full blast so the timba noise can dissolve her voice.

After i took a bath, (of course i wouldn't elaborate it here) i went upstairs to don some clothes. I want to put this blue shirt on, but i cannot find it. So i called up our ever-attentive maid and inquired her about it. She said she did not know. She said she just placed it on my closet the night before. etc. etc.

THEN ALL FUCKING HELL BROKE LOOSE.

My mother, like a moderntitaness, opened her mouth. All kinds of rants blasted on me. Being used to this happening, i just ignored her as i always do. I am getting fed up with her. Or should i say, i am fed up with her.

I just hate when they gang up on me like that. I have not even touched the closet and they blame me on forgetting where i put the clothes. GODDAMN!

Now, its 2pm... i don't want to go home because i will see those goddamn faces once again...

I just want to graduate already, buy myself a house, then be free forever.

i crashed it.
Posted at 03:32 PM

i crashed our car. well, not actually crash-crash... just a little scratch. i just hope no one notices it. stupid tricycle guys.

tired
Posted at 02:35 PM

yes.

hahahahah
Posted at 11:54 PM

kala mo ah! bwahahaha! puro ka kasi asa! woooo! happy happy joy joy! sarap mang trip! lalo na sa mga taong walang kwenta!

hehe
Posted at 05:09 AM



we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.
and if i could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
and never let go
i'll never let go
as we round the corner
to your house
you turned to me and said,
"i'll be going through withdrawal of you
for this one night we have spent."
and, i want to speak these words
but i guess i'll just bite my tongue,
and accept "someday, somehow"
as the words that we'll hang from.

and i, i don't want to speak these words.
'cause i, i don't want to make things any worse.
and i, i don't want to speak these words.
'cause i, i don't want to make things any worse.

why does tonight, have to end?
why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i.

and i, i don't want to speak these words.
'cause i, i don't want to make things any worse.
and i, i don't want to speak these words
'cause i, i don't want to make things
and i, i don't want to make things any worse

happy happy joy joy
Posted at 02:40 AM

natapos KO na ang dalawang super projects KO.
Ang Super Inventory System ng PLDT, at ang Super E-MAP of the Metro Manila...

tas, tas, pnaheram pa ko ni bryan ng kanyang Super Mega External Hard Disk of eternal Downloads... kaya padownload download na lang ako dito... bwahahahahha!

Yes, this is the Philippines.
Posted at 12:13 AM

Gadamet! Once again, i was so damn pissed against BUS drivers.

The scenario:

On my way home, as usual, i took the bus. The bus was like a hundred-year-old bus. There were violent tear all around the body, foul smelling burnt clutch, and dislocated seats. As you all know, here in the Philippines, as long as there is an inch in the bus, the kundoktor will fill, and fill the bus with people.

These damned kundoktors incorporate techniques like:

1) The kunwari-my-space-pa-kaso-pag-nalaman-mo-na-wala-di-na-pede-baba technique

Kundoktors on Ayala Buses will yell : "Maluwag pa! Maluwag pa!" Then innocent passengers will think: "Puta, ang init, sasakay na ko" Then little do they know that there's no available seat inside. Then when you are already pissed (because he lied), all ready to get out of the bus, the kundoktor will say: "Sir, bawal na po lumabas dito, bawal po babaan." "Eh, kala ko ba maluwag pa!?" "hahahaha, Joke lang un tanga!"

2) Sige-andar-lang-basta-kaya-umandar-kaso-sira-tlga-tong-bus technique

There are these buses that are ready to explode, smelling like burnt rubber. But, as long as it can move, the driver will force the damned bus to move. Due to frequent stops, and that awful smell, other passengers will start to be pissed. You will hear shouts of dissapointment. Then the driver or the kundoktor will say something like: "Puta, sasakay sakay kayo, di na pede ibalik ung bayad!" Poor passengers have no choice but to get out and look for another bus and shell out extra bucks.

Scenario two happened to me. putang ina talagang mga driver to! wla, ang pilipinas, wala na talga.

Certification Exams
Posted at 01:03 PM

I checked my mail, then one subject caught my eye.

Mr. Tiongco, my OJT prof, deliberately applied me
for the Pilot Run of the Phil Information Technology general Certification Exam.

What is he playing at?

We are only about seven taking this certification...



WOW mali ata 2.

Its Finished!
Posted at 02:13 AM

Woo! OJT is finished! Yes, i'm outta this hell hole! This past two months or so has been a bloody snapshot of what corporate life will be.. It has honed my inner bearings, my whole machinery, so i can compete and kick the ass of those corporate dumbarses to the moon.

I'm thankful to the people here. For without them, i will not be experiencing non-stop downloading action. Yes, the internet connection here is monumental - imagine lightning fast downloading power. Imagine downloading a 5 minute music video faster than before you can say "whoa."

The people here, of course, treated me as a regular employee. A few others, well, sort of... BUT, i am still thankful nonetheless.. Though a certain someone here gave me a typing project (which lasted a few weeks, giving my fingers a thorough workout, developing finger-muscles in the process), i am still happy... a little sad, for i am leaving this place which has become a home for me for the past two months...

Here are some of the things i will miss:

1) Super duper, mega, fast internet connection - The holy grail of Corporate benefits, though they are not paying me here, number 1 is good enough for an internet freak like me. Imagine, non-stop surfing, botting and downloads... (w/o number 1, karuru will not turn level 99)

2) Super gourmet, delicious canteen food - Yes, another benefit. Imagine gourmet food for free... Damn.

3) Corporate Hot Chicks - (Disclaimer: number 3 is for my ojt buddy, aepol. I have no interest in number 3.) PLDT is the holy ground for hotties. Oh, by the way there are three(3) new OJT people here. And they are girls from St.Scho, and Aepol has never been happier.

And lastly:

4) The super fast, internet... er.. The experience and camaraderie. Yes, i have made a few friends along this two-month winding corporate road. And it was rewarding.

Have i mentioned the super fast internet connection?

WOOO
Posted at 06:18 AM

natapos ko din ung inventory system, complete with installer! hahaha!
YEAH!

End hath cometh.
Posted at 12:49 AM

Its friday and its the d-day. This is it folks. This gloomy, cold and dark day seems mocking yet it is a perfect setting for a goodbye.
Sad oldies are playing in the background from a colleagues radio. This is really it.

Three months ago, i was just some kid brought to the lion's den. Their faces are long and serious. A mocking grin is hinted whenever my work partner does wrong. Frustrations are its peak whenever i feel that i am the only one who does all the work. Much more when someone pries the glory from my fingers. Yes, that was frustration at its peak. After long hours of looking at a mocking screen, after early wake up calls and cold water on my back... finally, it's finished.

Early on this corporate snapshot, camaraderie has been building up. The long faces, now, shows yellow, tartar tainted teeth. It is common among them to have these white hair. I just thought that they were the signs of work-frustrations building up, coupled with family feuds or problems, but i was wrong - they were indications of their unwavering wisdom. The wisdom they accumulated through thorough mistakes, through trial and error, through their journey in this one way road called life.

As i type this passage here, the silent tapping of the keyboard brings a sweet melody as i reminisce the hardships i went through. Yes, hardships are always coupled with fun and most of the time. This fun has been the fuel that burns on my young insides. Turning the young machinery to well-oiled one, ready to combat all that comes my way.

I know that what i experience now is just a feeble snapshot compared to what i will face when the time comes that i am sitting on my own table, a steel name plate engraved with my name sits proudly on my front and when my future is realized. I know, no one is reading this right now, hell, who does? But i know, in my soul, that when i browse my account, i will see this little passage that has been a catalyst for the life i have been building.

Friendships come and go, fun always ends sooner than you expect. Passages always ends when you type that final period on the end. You will then catch yourself smiling a broad smile, thinking lightly on what you accomplished, on what you achieved. This is life, life is a one way road that has no turning back, has no room for regret, if you want to see the light at the end of a tunnel... then go on, stand proud, chin raised, as you walk the road that has full of pointed stones and mirrors. These garbage will make you stronger and as the saying goes: for the same fire that melts butter, hardens steel. This saying has molded me to what i am now. I am not saying that i am successful or anything, but still, i know what i want to be, and what will i go through to get to that scenario, where i am smiling, together with my children with their sons as i remenisce this day, September 16, 2005, as i am typing this small passage.



haha puta ang drama... geh geh, ggwin ko pa presentation ko!


---------------------
after 3 hours

To continue my forecast. Boss Jun treated us to a super-mega meal because we are leaving today. Chinese foods are not my fancy but, hell, the food was del-i-cious... You know these food baskets? Yes, the table was literally flooded with these foods that was so-damn heavy on the stomach. With constant third servings and bottomless iced-tea, i was almost dead. But dying on a full stomach is good enough for me.

geh geh...

adventchildren
Posted at 07:21 AM

Final Fantasy 7 - The game that brought RPG to the mainstream. The game that made the original gray gaming box a monster in the game world. The only game that made that 10000+ random battle as exciting as the first.

I finished this game 3 times on the PS and 2 times on the PC. The story is still top-notch, hands down to that. The visuals, of course is stunning (late 90's standards). Of course, the characters, ah, yes, who will forget - cloud, tifa and the rest of the gang?

So, what did Square do to reap millions and millions once again? Yes, make a movie spin-off. And they did the right thing for the fans. It is moments like this that makes sturdy, macho game players cry like a girl watching a backstreet boys concert.

The movie starts 2 years after the incident at the northern crater. Cloud being the stubborn man that he is, left Tifa (his love interest) along with Barret's daughter Marlene. The movie then introduces a gang of 3 which is lead by a gray haired gay looking man who looks like raiden from MGS2. And guess who this man really is - SEPHIROTH! (haha spoiler on that one) And who the hell is sephiroth you ask? Sephiroth is the single, most ass-kicking villain in the face of the planet. He is the epitome of the word cool. Without him, cool is not in the dictionary.

Damn, this movie is so goddamn amazing. You cannot ask for more!
Everthing is here. So, if you are a fan of FF7, the greatest game ever made (i'm sure no one will contradict that). One gripe though, ITS SO DAMN SHORT. But we can't argue, Square gave us what we want... download this oh-so-amazing movie at www.torrentspy.com.


Recommedations:

1) Bring diapers, the eye-popping, fist-clenching, booty-shaking visuals will cause involuntary pissing. Don't say i didn't warn you.

2) Tissues, the euphoria will bring tears in your eyes. Damn, those of you who waited five or more years will shed tears of joy on this one. Ow, scenes like the death of Aeris brought Kleenex to the world you know...

as always
Posted at 02:47 PM

as always, you were always right. i wouldn't elaborate on this one!

Let's play DotA! One of the outlet of my frustrations this past week. Ojt is finished! And yeah, i will over-indluge myself! wooo! happy, happy, joy, joy.

So whats up?
Posted at 12:46 PM

I just finished my last requirement for school. This means graduation! Woo... I was a little disapointed on my defense. Not because our prof is missing in action, not because that same prof did not give the format of the book bind, not because he did nothing so we can get a proper room, complete with overhead projector and a CPU, but because the defense was so damn easy.

Not bragging about that but hell, it was not worth my preparation. The panel did not even had the chance to get a glimpse of my kickarse presentation. Well, aside from that, they did not even mark a single revision on my document. Hey, they are not doing their job!

Ok, so on the other side of things... Today is the anniversary of the Martial law proclamation. My parents were not even married back then so i got nothing to do with it.

My head is achiiinggg... er..

What's life after graduation
Posted at 10:46 PM

So, finally, gagraduate na din ako. After 10 plus years of non-stop commuting, projects, annoying teachers, classmates, school activities blah, blah, gagraduate na din ako..

So i stop and think: So what's life after graduation? That very same instant, i realized i haven't planned yet what i'm going to do after this. Ang sabi nga nila, nagsisimula ka pa lang, welcome to the real world... Yes, welcome to the real world. Welcome to life.

When i was a kid, i have no idea why the hell i am going to this place, packed with kids, led by an old hag, teaching lessons that i will not use when i return home. Natatandaan ko pa, bored na bored ako dati sa school. This day's scenario was an almost exact replica of yesterday. Some teacher will teach a lesson called Math, then she will give an exam afterwards. After the test, i will draw doodles on the back of the paper like i always do, then some questions pop on my 8-year old mind : Sino ang nagimbento ng Math?, Bat my Math pa?, Bakit kaya ako nagaaral?

Then i come to realize na kaya pala tayo nag aaral kasi balang araw, we will lead this country. And then you ask how can you lead a disfunctional country? The answer is simple - Money. Oo, sabi nila money makes the world go round, tama sila don. Pano ka makakapagcontribute sa bansa mo? Shempre, sa buwis na binabayaran mo - pag kumakain ka sa labas, pag bumibili ka ng grocery, ultimo pag tulog mo gumagastos ka... di mo naman pwede patayin ang electric fan kasi mainit sa Pilipinas.

In the old times, trading was the source of livelihood of people. The Chinese introduced it to us. They come in hordes here, introduce products such as silk, satin etc. Sabi nila, makukuwa natin ang produktong yon pag ittrade sa ganitong producto. Eventually, trading became the source of living for people. As technology rises, people invented a more convinient way of trading - Bills and coins.

Ngayon, makikita mo na simula pala non, pera na ang nagpapatakbo ng buhay ng tao. Malalaman mo na kaya ka pala nag aral e para makapaghanap ka ng trabaho. Maitatanong mo na pano kaya yung mga mahihirap na walang means para makapagaral, pano kaya sila makakahanap ng trabho ng maganda ang kita? Bakit pa kelangan ng pera?

Money is the sole mover of the society. Yang mga building na yan, ung pinakaunang pako na ginamit jan, binili yan. Pera, pera... You'll find out the reason why your parents let you in an exclusive school is for you to earn money so you can support them when they get old.

OO, pera. So tinatanong ko ang sarili ko, ano ang buhay after graduation? The answer is oh-so-simple, get a job, earn money, get out of this hellhole, earn some more money, live life, then die. Its the basic cycle that has been endured by the people since the start of time. You need to earn. Ngaun, magtatanong ulit ako, bakit kaya di na lang libre ang lahat? Bakit di pedeng libre ang pagkain na kinakain ko? Bakit kaya di ako pedeng magaral ng libre?

This world is sick.

Putangina niyo sir.
Posted at 03:07 PM

Nakita ko na grade ko, ang baba ang puta.

Di ko deserve un, pagkatapos ko nagpakahirap? bleep bleep mo pala eh, wala ka na ngang ginawang matino, di ka kumuwa ng room nung defense, kaibigan mo pa ang nagpadefense, wala tayong groups... bleep, ano ba ginawa mo?

Hindi ako nagpakahirap ng 2 buwan, gumawa ng projects para lang ganun ang skor ko? bleep, DOS punto Bentesinko?? bleep mo, wag ka magpapakita sakin pipilayan kita. Ipapalamon ko ung project ko sau eh. Titirisin ko mata mo tapos tatanggalin ko spinal column mo tapos iwhiwhip ko sa pwet mo. bleep bleep mo.

Welcome working world
Posted at 06:37 AM

Oi, natanggap ako sa allied telesyn - kalaban ito ng Cisco. Goodluck na lang sakin.

So tired.
Posted at 03:04 PM

This day was oh-so-excruciating. I am sooo tired. I've walked kilometers upon kilometers... well, not really kilometers... but hey, that was sooooo tiring. Well anyways, it was my first time to have a medical checkup, and the doctor was gay as far as i can tell... i don't want to elaborate on that one coz it was disgusting.

Ok, so now i have aching foot. By the way, i am a little dissapointed because mj is in another company, don't get me wrong, i am happy for her (finally, after 2 months) but i was kindof disappointed because i should have sent her application with the goddamned resume attached, because of that, the reply was delayed for 1 day. She should be scheduled for interview tomorrow but alas, she was hired by that tsuki-something company.

Now, i just hope patty gets accepted coz i don't want to be alone in that corporate junkyard.

So, so, gotta rest. Yeah.

Kabado.
Posted at 12:22 PM

Di ko talaga maexplain pero kinakabahan ako sa monday... I know myself perfectly well, more than often, i always come out the victor versus challenges. Pero this particular challenge, this is the real thing folks, the real world. Ano kaya mangyayari sakin? Natatakot ako baka 1 week pa lang sisantehin na ko! haha.. Kasi sabi nung friend ko, bakit daw Software Engineer agad ako... dpat daw Junior Software Engineer or something pa daw....

Damn! Ni di nga yon ang inapplyan ko... tsk, pero dahil daw "impressive" ang aking resume, well, here we are... Bigger than usual nga ang sweldo, but can i really cope up with the challenge? Grabe, i know first timers always get this jitters when they first grasp the reality that they are working.

Damn, i'm not confident at all... at all... grabe, impressive daw ang school? Well, if they only know... I did learn from Mapua, but that's it. Un lang un. Wala talaga... from stupid professors, ultra fast nonsense lessons... Actually, nagancho lang ang magulang ko sa school na yan. Walang kwenta. Ok, given na ang kumpletong equipments, but what's a complete set of equipments when the prof that's teaching you to use them is... well, stupid. Also, Mapua's curriculum sucks bigtime... Ginawa lang kaming guinea pigs para sa curriculum na to.

Ok, back to my present problem. Ayun nga, kabado ako. Ewan ko ba.. di ako ganito eh... Sana lang my internet don.

T_T